Week 2

Well, I weighed in tonight. I am down 5.4 pounds. I earned my first gold sticker! Woo hoo! I am very excited that my hard work paid off this week. Unfortunately the way I chose to reward myself was by eating Wendy's for dinner. I didn't even pick anything healthy. I wanted the fries. Oh well, it will be a constant struggle for me I guess. Here's to the next two weeks. I hope that I am just as successful while I am home with my family.

Some people don't get it!

So I just finished having a conversation with my size 2 sister-in-law about weightloss. Some people just don't get it. She told me tonight that she could lose 8 lbs before dropping below her healthy weight range. HELLO? I can lose 100 lbs and just barely be reaching the high end of my healthy weight range. I wish I could be so oblivious about how food and weight affect people. (sigh) I wish this wasn't a struggle in my life, but it is. So now I need to buck up and deal with it.

Weight Watchers it is!

So, I signed up for Weight Watchers tonight. They told me I was brave starting before the holidays. I am just hoping that it will help me stay in control of myself a little more than if I wasn't doing anything. Also, this is my first big step towards losing weight before Aruba. I am excited, but nervous at the same time. It is really hard to make big life changes.

Failure...success...life

Okay so it's almost Christmas and I have not lost my 20lbs. I haven't gained either, so that is a mini-success, I guess. Well, I have some new motivation...at least I hope it will motivate me. I am going to Aruba at the end of March with my spouse. I am very excited about the trip and I would like to lose some weight before then so that I will be able to look back at pictures from the trip and really enjoy the memories. You know? So my new goal is to lose 25-30 lbs by the time that we go to Aruba. That will be an average of 2 lbs a week. Here goes nothing. I think I need to hang a picture of Aruba up in my work out room. Here's to starting my New Year's resolution early.

Sabotage!

Not that I don't love my husband, but he needs to go back to work. I swear he purposefully tries to sabotage my dieting and weight loss attempts. Okay, maybe it's a little my fault too. I have no will power. Well, he leaves tonight for 2 weeks so it's back to the good habits of running and eating healthy. Thpbthpbthpb! I wish I could just eat whatever I wanted and be skinny. It just isn't fair that some people (like my spouse) have that metabolism.

Moderation in all things...all things!

Sometimes I forget the importance of moderation in all things. This includes not only the foods I eat, but also in the amount of time I spend on exercise too. Sometimes I get so obsessed and then I burn myself out. I am trying not to do that this time. I am still doing well. Woo hoo, week two is almost over.

A round of applause, please.

So I had a good week. I am down in the weight department. I have been eating better. And I ran/walked on the treadmill 3 more days this week. So that is 4/6 days. Not too shabby. Especially for a girl who wasn't even sure she remembered where the treadmill was a week ago.

Brave, but not that brave....

So, my friend Katie is truly an amazing person. I admire her determination and persistance. After talking with her this past weekend I have decided to be more like her. I started exercising again. I am only on day 4, but I have gotten on my treadmill 3 out 0f the last 4 days. Not too bad. I have also tried to be better with what I eat. Yesterday was not a great day because I spent the whole day at the in-laws baking apple bread, making carmel apples, and homemade apple sauce. (Did you notice the theme?) We sure were able to quickly turn a healthy snack into something not so healthy. Oh well. Today was better.
I am going to steal a page from Katie's book. I am going to write down my goals, well at least one of them. I am also going to lose 20 lbs by Christmas. I am going to do this by exercising and not over eating.
Thank you, Katie! You are the best! I am trying to be brave like you, but not so brave as to post any before pictures. I'm just not that brave, yet.

Where oh where does the time go?

Okay, so apparently it has been like 3 weeks since I have done anything truly great with the whole weightloss thing. I had my family here for a week, then Zach and Karina got married which was like a whole week of just stress and too much eating, and then to top it all off I headed to Girls Camp. I wasn't sure if camp would affect me negatively or positively. It turns out, it did neither. I am right where I was when I left. Which means I ate way too much while I was there, because I was way active at camp. I even went on a 6 mile hike up to a place called Monument. It was amazing, but I hope the next time that I make that trek, that I will be more fit and therefore able to enjoy the journey more.

On hold...

My progress is currently on hold while I have my family in town. It is just too hard for me right now. But, I am very excited to get back to my "new" way of life when they leave. Hopefully by the next time they visit, it will be so engrained in me that I won't have to take a hiatus from it.

So far so good...

I haven't been doing too awesome about keeping track of my points as I go. I have been tallying them at the end of the day. When I do the tally I find myself over by like 5 or so points. This isn't good. I am dipping into my extra points at the beginning of the week, when I should be saving them for the weekend or what not. Anyway, today I have tracked as I eat. I am about 5 points under my goal and I have already eaten dinner. That means I may be able to sneak in a treat tonight. I also feel it an accomplishment that I dished out one serving onto my plate, ate it and then put the leftover food away. I am notorious for eating food until it is gone, or snacking on the leftovers even when I am not hungry. So now they are put away and I can't just eat them, it will take thought and effort to pull the food back out.
Does anyone know how to count crystal light drinks? Are they 0 points? Next to water, that is what I drink the most of.

My thoughts!

I love to exercise. I don't know why I don't always do it, but I really do enjoy being physically active. However, I think that lately I have been pushing myself a little too hard. I am trying to still accomplish the things that I did when I was 40 lbs lighter than I am right now. I am hurting my body by doing this. I have decided to make eating right my first priority right now and let the exercise come with it when my body is ready. That doesn't mean that I am going to stop completely, but I don't think I will be as intense with it or as often. We'll see how it goes. Hopefully by not worrying so much about exercise, I will be able to really master eating the way I am supposed to.

Soreness!

I went on a 12+ mile bike ride yesterday. It was really fun. but, today my bum hurts and so does my knees. I think I might have needed my bike seat raised a bit. Oh well, I really enjoyed the ride and it was exercise, so that is all that matters.
I also had an awesome suger free desert yesterday. It was a layered desert. There was a crust mixture of flour, butter and nuts. Then a layer of sugar free vanilla pudding, a layer of sugar free chocolate pudding, a layer of sugar free cool whip, and topped off with some chopped nuts. It was yummy! And fairly healthy.

Weight Watchers

I did Weight Watchers back in 2005 and just recently found all my old stuff. I still had 4 tracking pamphlets, so I am thinking about using them again and seeing how I do. If I feel that it helps me, then I will go in and sign up. I am excited to start keeping better track of what I consume.

One Day at a Time

I woke up early enough this morning to do 45 minutes of Hi-Def sculpt. I am very proud of my self. And I have chosen a variety of fruits for breakfast and a piece of cinnamon bread. I feel good about my choices and that makes me happy. I also think I might try some of Katie's recipes. They sounded yummy.

Power Punch

So, I did my power punch and then I hopped on the treadmill! ;) That's right, I hopped on the treadmill. Wow, that felt good. Sometimes I wonder how much of a role depression plays in my life. I came home from work today, flopped on the couch, ate myself silly and felt like crap. Then at about 9, I realized that this was ridiculous and I made myself get up, get my workout clothes on and then walk on the treadmill. I only did a mile and a half, but that is better than nothing. I always feel so much better when I exercise. I now feel 100% better than I did 45 minutes ago. A friend of mine said the other day, "I might as well get up and start doing instead of waiting for the motivation to come." That is the point that I am at right now. It's amazing how quickly one's attitude toward something can change-especially my own. Keep your fingers crossed that you hear from me again tomorrow.
And a shout out to Katie-Congratulations on your 1.4lb weight loss this week! You go girl!

What is wrong with me?

Okay, so Brandon came home, that's what is wrong with me. As you probably know, if you read my other blog, my whole life gets turned upside down when Brandon is home. It's like I have no control over myself. Anyway, Brandon left again last night and I have decided to try my very hardest to stay on track this entire 2 weeks that he is gone. I want to develop some good habits so that when he comes back it will be easier to stay on track. Wish me luck!

I did it!

Okay, so again today I didn't want to get out of bed, but I did it! I got up and I did the full Hard Core Fusion video. I still felt a little sluggish, but nonetheless, I did it-all 55 min of it. And last night, my friend Mistie and I went for a walk around my neighborhood...probably about 2 1/2 miles. I am trying so very hard to stay active. I go for walks during my 15 min breaks at work to.
Eventhough I know that increasing my activity level will help, I think/know that if I were to also change my eating, I would have more success. I'm just not there yet. One day at a time!

Rough Time

This morning was not a good morning. First, I didn't want to get up when my alarm went off. I allowed myself to sleep in about 15 minutes and then I made myself get up and exercise. I felt like I was made of lead as I was trying to do the moves. It didn't seem to matter how hard I tried to keep up with the videos, I was dragging. I was glad that it was only an "express" workout. I am not sure that I could've handled a full length workout. I hope that tomorrow will be better.

Rest Day

Well today was supposed to be my rest day. I rested from theFIRM videos, but I still got some exercise in. I went on a 3 mile bike ride with my in-laws. It was really nice and I enjoyed the change of pace. I think that things are still going well for me. I have decided to back down on the weighing myself. I can get really obsessive and then if I am up like 2 ounces one day, I get frusterated. I think from now on I am only going to weigh on Fridays. Hopefully I will continue to progress as I have been.

Day 18

Okay, so it's been about 2 1/2 weeks since I started doing the FIRM videos. Today is day 18. I did the Hard Core Fusion Express video. Today was a pretty good day. I was able to keep up and do all the moves. I have noticed that I have good days and I have bad days when it comes to working out. Sometimes I feel as though I can't even lift my leg to do a knee lift. Thankfully, today wasn't one of those days.

Here goes nothing!

A good friend suggested I start a blog just for talking about my weightloss efforts. I think that it is a good idea, so here I go.
My weight has been an issue for me for most of my life. When I was a senior in high school, I lost about 20 lbs doing the Atkins diet with my parents, however that didn't last and I gained it all back. My freshman year of college I lost weight cause of all the walking that I was doing, but by sophomore year, it was back on again-I had a car at school that year. I got a membership to Gold's gym and was very diligent for a long time, but I never really noticed a size difference, just felt better about myself. Other people claimed that they could see a difference. But just like every time before I stopped what I was doing and ended up right back where I had started. Four months after getting married, I reached my heaviest weight. I was working in an office and not getting much exercise and definitely not eating healthy. A friend at work said she was going to LA Weightloss. She told me they had a special running, so I went with her and signed up. For several months I learned to change my eating habits. I was able to lose 20+ lbs. Then my husbands sister suggested I start running. She told me that she would run a 5k with me. So I trained for 2 1/2 months and RAN my first 5k on July 4th last year. The combination of eating healthy and running had gotten me down to my lowest weight since high school. At the end of the summer I had lost a total of 40 lbs. I was super excited. Unfortunately, old habits die hard and over the winter I started eating poorly again and stopped running. It was a month ago that I realized that I had gained every ounce of weight back. My clothes weren't fitting anymore and I had to pull my fat clothes back out. I was depressed. But I decided that I wasn't going to be okay with that. I ordered The FIRM workout kit called the Total Body Transformation. I started doing the workouts about 2 weeks ago and already I have dropped 7 lbs. It feels so good to see immediate results. I hope that it will help me to stay motivated. I know that I can do this. My goal is to lose another 85 lbs. It kind of scares me to think of losing that much weight. This is who I have always been and I don't know what is in store for my identity if I am not big. I've always been big. That is what has made me who I am today. I can't wait for the day when I see myself small. So, as I said at the start, here goes nothing!