Here goes nothing!

A good friend suggested I start a blog just for talking about my weightloss efforts. I think that it is a good idea, so here I go.
My weight has been an issue for me for most of my life. When I was a senior in high school, I lost about 20 lbs doing the Atkins diet with my parents, however that didn't last and I gained it all back. My freshman year of college I lost weight cause of all the walking that I was doing, but by sophomore year, it was back on again-I had a car at school that year. I got a membership to Gold's gym and was very diligent for a long time, but I never really noticed a size difference, just felt better about myself. Other people claimed that they could see a difference. But just like every time before I stopped what I was doing and ended up right back where I had started. Four months after getting married, I reached my heaviest weight. I was working in an office and not getting much exercise and definitely not eating healthy. A friend at work said she was going to LA Weightloss. She told me they had a special running, so I went with her and signed up. For several months I learned to change my eating habits. I was able to lose 20+ lbs. Then my husbands sister suggested I start running. She told me that she would run a 5k with me. So I trained for 2 1/2 months and RAN my first 5k on July 4th last year. The combination of eating healthy and running had gotten me down to my lowest weight since high school. At the end of the summer I had lost a total of 40 lbs. I was super excited. Unfortunately, old habits die hard and over the winter I started eating poorly again and stopped running. It was a month ago that I realized that I had gained every ounce of weight back. My clothes weren't fitting anymore and I had to pull my fat clothes back out. I was depressed. But I decided that I wasn't going to be okay with that. I ordered The FIRM workout kit called the Total Body Transformation. I started doing the workouts about 2 weeks ago and already I have dropped 7 lbs. It feels so good to see immediate results. I hope that it will help me to stay motivated. I know that I can do this. My goal is to lose another 85 lbs. It kind of scares me to think of losing that much weight. This is who I have always been and I don't know what is in store for my identity if I am not big. I've always been big. That is what has made me who I am today. I can't wait for the day when I see myself small. So, as I said at the start, here goes nothing!